Lord, I'm sorry I'm not my best. I need you, please help me ):
Please send someone, anyone to knock at my door.
Give me a real tight hug, and stay up all night to let me cry it all out til my eyes are all puffy.
And then, give me words that will console me and make me feel good.
After that, put me nicely tugged into my bed, and kiss my forehead.
Run your fingers through my hair to make me sleep, til you, yourself falls asleep.
I need company to run, to pull my hand.
I tried screaming into a pillow, but I was unable to breathe.

I'm basically having one of the really bad weeks of my life.

1. You give me all the crap, all that confusion. And just when I think I've got that off my mind,
2. My father wants me to stay home after coming back from Exco Meeting on Thursday for the mere one hour to babysit my brother, Justin, because Kevin has got tuition. Did I mention it's 3 to 4? It's the middle of the day. And just when I'm finally letting go of the shopping trip with Deen,
3. My father gets angry because he thinks I don't want to help him, and said he will never get help from me again. It's heartbreaking.
4. My father comes home angry with that fact, and gets even angrier with me because my room is 20% messy.
5. And just when I'm feeling sorry, and decided to help my brother. I came home, asking my brother for the remote because he was flipping it alternatively between two channels. And I saw a Hannah Montana Music Video, and I wanted to watch it. And he said, "Go away, Dumbass." Do keep in mind, that a music video, from Disney Channel, is only 2 minutes, at the most 3?
6. And that was the first time I actually stared at the Telly today, because I've been in school, yeah, still in school, filming.
7. And when I told my mom I wanted to watch Step Up, she gave me that look, and I knew I would never get the chance to watch it.
8. I'm free tomorrow, but the world isn't.
9. Everyone's leaving. Amanda's leaving on Thursday, and I almost could see her off, but filming, then just when there's no filming, my unappreciative brother comes in. And then, I imagine how hard it will be to keep a friendship going, when we're so distant.
10. My friend's moving out. Which means, no more throwing down contact lens solution. No more talking about stupid rumours that just freaks us out.
11. No more this and no more that.

Goodbye.

Caroline just knocked a lot of sense to me, and I'm now crying my heart out. Thanks girl. I mean, seriously.